When you are trying to conceive, it’s always disappointing when you start you period. Especially if you are feeling pregnant or are so certain that this cycle was your cycle.
It’s funny, I never really dreaded the onset of my menstrual cycle until recently.
We got pregnant with Caleb by chance. We weren’t trying, we weren’t not trying, it just happened. It was perfectly timed, honestly, and we were ready for it.
But we want to expand our family and it is either now or never for us. We are both getting older and if we are going to have a second child, we want them to be somewhat close in age. For a while, I wavered on if I wanted a second child or not but it seems like only in the past few months that I realized that having my period has left me disappointed.
I didn’t get my period back until 22 months postpartum and thankfully, it has been regular (I’ve always had a regular cycle). I thought we would get pregnant the second time pretty quickly, but here we are – 7 months later and nothing.
So I decided to stack the deck in my favor. I’ve been focusing even more on what I eat. I purchased a device to measure LH levels. I’m considering a blood test to measure my fertility. All things that I will expand on in future posts.
Does my family feel incomplete right now? No. I’m happy to say that it doesn’t. If it doesn’t happen, I’m perfectly happy raising Caleb as an only child. There is nothing wrong with that. I was an only child and would not change a thing. I think that is why I have such a close relationship with my mom.
But I do want Caleb to have a sibling to grow up with if it is in the cards for us. I want him to have someone that will keep his secrets, run wild with him, be there for him – someone besides me, of course.
Where are you at on your TTC (trying to conceive) journey?